just weight

man.
icant believe it.
ireally cant.
that icould be so ignorant.. :/
iwasted so much time. ikno i've said it once before..
but this time ireally realized it! thanks to raul..
gahd :( ithink i'll take Rome's advice..
he said let love come to me. im tired of lookin for it.
and gettin hurt.. how could ilet someone play me for a fool?
really.. thats all it was. just lust.and being used..
asshole. iwanna say ihate you. but iknow idont.
:/ sad thing is, ikept lettin myself believe it was okay.
when it wasnt..at all! but im glad ihave those friends..
the friends that'll let me know whats goin on isnt right..
so thanks raul & adrianna.. those names just look so right together..
lol but anyways.. thanks(:

iluhhyuuguys.<3
thanks for everything.
thanks for bein there even when ididnt wanna listen.
but hopefully you've knocked some sense into me.
dont let me believe somethin ikno isnt right. even when itry to make myself.
gahd, will it eever end tho?


peace<3